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another late post [24 Oct 2009|03:00am] its late i know. i did work tonight but finished around 9... 85bones in 4 hours- not bad i guess... doug and i are going to a wedding tomorrow. im a little nervous about it only because its his friend's wedding and i wont't know many people... i always obsess over dressing up, its awful.. tomboy growing up, wearing dresses.. its an ongoing process. doug came and met me for a drink when i finished.. had some nachos too.. yumm.. tiger woods will be the end of us.. karen is doing my hair tomorrow and i am quite excited, its definitely time for a dye/cut.. i have been feeling girly lately yet the new shoes i bought i was told are not fancy.. im sure they arn't but any shoe with a heal is fancy to me. so i have been feeling insecure about this whole thing until my friend at work told me " im sure your looking good, besides no one is looking at your shoes.. or you, its the bride everyone will look at" sold! best advice ever! im sure i will be tired and slighly hungover tomorrow, i will blame this on the tiger woods.. yeah damn that tiger woods 2009 until next time. live long and prosper ps i love the star trek movie -=jen=- post comment

wow [13 Oct 2009|04:34am] [ mood | awake ] so i have read the last few entries... i really have forgotten how candid i was.. my life spread wide open, my thoughts and feelings right out there.. its pretty much like my books, only people can read this, but maybe i want people to.. who am i kidding, who is going to read this shyte over youtube and everyting else thats entertaining. I should try.. I am going to try and write in here again, I have even stopped writing in my jounal (doug calls it a diary,. but i refuse to call it a diary, diary are for gay people.. cheesy people.. ITS NOT A DIARY) okay.. im 26.. i have been living with doug (my person) since may 1. he is my main man.. he is my best friend/person/lover/everything! we live in bronte oakville.. L6L 5H1. i am impressed i remembered our postal code because that took a long time. you know what, i think i like this live journal bullshit journal typing crap. its like a mental barf. its like im talking to someone with no interuptions, except for those darn typo's. but who cares about punctuation and typing when you have a computer to do it all for you.. yeah im horrible i know... whats a comma? or a capital letter?? i think i loved this so much before because i didn;t think anyone would read it so i had nothing to hide and nothing to pretend. it was like my books only.. inkless.... and a hell of a lot faster to get from my head to paper.. or comuter. whatever gets it outta my head faster is the best! i think i forgot my password for a reason...... its 4:43... almost ....... . 4:44 there it is. make a wish....... i wish that..... happily ever after... I have realized ive had many different paths in my life..... different relationships and such. each changing me little by little...... why am i talking about that? maybe i had a point buyt i lost it.. these are the consequences to typing drunk,,, you have a new idea as quickly as you lose it. no but serious time now... this guy doug.. he's a keeper... he is my one and only.. i have been in love before but this. this is it.. no one tops him.. he knows me more than i know myself.. now im just drunk talking now, perhaps its becasue i have to pee and im typing super fast.. man i forgot how much i love just babbeling. this is all for now but i shall continue my gay ass livejournal internet venting... uncensored, nothing to hide... raw -=jen=- 1 comment|post comment

whoa [13 Oct 2009|04:20am] its october 2009... its been at least 2 years since i have even tried to get into this.. i can;t believe it still exists.. I CAN'T BELIEVE MY PROFILE STILL EXISTS! this could be entertaining to read through the past years.. almost like a time capsule saved on the internet... it pretty much is that, my online diary saved.... if only i can remember my passowrd again... i am out. -=jen=- MUSIC??? wtf is the music thing?? wow....... post comment

help me find the painter of this pic [23 Nov 2007|06:18pm] im calling on all livejournal readers to help me... i have this picture of a painting in the louvre in paris and stupid me never took the 2 seconds to find out who painted it or what its called.. if anyone can help me i'd appreciate it... 3 comments|post comment

wow [09 Nov 2007|08:18pm] [ mood | bored ] not many journals to read anymore here, i have 2 friends who have continnued to write.. possibly because facebook has taken over, i know im there ALLLL THE TIMEE im just curious to see if anyone reads my shit.. probably not update summer was fun, zoey's with sam, back at the arms europe was fabulous i just spilled water on my lappy, oops 4 comments|post comment

[28 May 2007|04:38pm] livejouranl is gay im back home, back at the arms.. and making kick ass money.. things with me are good.. zoey, not so much... shes- dying. slowly..... im very sad ive got the day off today, im happy bout that. now thats all. post comment

[11 Mar 2007|02:00pm] [ mood | good ] i never write in lj anymore.... my house smells like spring. i love it. im getting spring fever. i work at caseys now. its pathetic tho compared to the arms. ive realized you can never happily go back to resturants after working in a busy pub like the arms. its boring... you make shit money. yesterday i went to work with 10 bucks............... i cam home with 15 i had to pay 10bucks for a cab there and 10 back. it was brut. they've been giving me 2 table sections cause im new... but they saw yesterday i can easily take on more. i swear i had more time to bus and transfe others food than the tables i had needed. i dont know if that made sense but i was fucking bored. it put me in such a bad mood. i have goo dnews tho. my dad dealt with my broken digi that i brought into best buy..... we had a warrenty but they wont fix the lcd screen.. we already knew that would happen.. but my dad was very persistant and they ended up giving him a brand new camera. its a canon powershot A460 the screan isnt as big as my other one but i figure is just less surface area to break...im gonna miss my pretty samsung digicam. whatevs. eric came home this afternoon from his hockey torunament. hes dead tired. i made him stay in the basement.... AKA the hole. so friday i got ditched by an old friend who im giving shit right now. i ended up being the DD for meghan and ashley. i got to drive ash's car all night. its a standard :) i never want to drive another automatic car again. well im going to.. go do something. -=jen=- 1 comment|post comment

[01 Mar 2007|10:11pm] [ mood | drunk ] la la la la la laaa i started my job at caseys........ yes, yet another serving job. whatever- its easy and its fast cash. i wish i could pay off all my debt by summer, then live at the cottage for like a month. that would be so aweomse im off tomorrow. how nice. my feet are already sore. man i got wimpy after leaving the arms..... i use to run around for 9 maybe 10 hours... i work for 4 and my feet hurt. how quickly we get use to doing nothing. i miss my fam. -=jen=- post comment

[17 Feb 2007|07:56pm] ive just been paking cause im leaving for sudbury tomorrow morning with eric and his parents. im beginning to get sad. i hate this. why is it that no matter what decision i make i find it so hard to stay committed to it.... when it comes down to the moment i break down and want to change my mind. what the hell is my problem? i just want to cry -=jen=- 1 comment|post comment

message in a bottle [15 Feb 2007|12:39pm] i just watched that movie.. message in a bottle... man do i love sappy love stories, i only with the 2 lived happily ever after! it would have made me feel muchb etter. instead i had a nice steady stream of tears flowing down my face...... damn tragic love stories. so last night i had this strange dream about eric and i finding a red car that we drive away in.. only to get pulled over by cops who charge eeric for driving while drunk - after having one drink.. but failing to notice we were in a stolen vehicle... then there was a ring, and crying and happyness... all infront of cops that pretty much did nothing.. oh yeah, eric had a gun in the car too... i think that was a combination of tv shows i watched that night. eric's coming tomorrow... he finally gets to see his baby neice myla.... i miss her already. so cute. shower for me -=jen=- post comment

[10 Feb 2007|09:30pm] Your Brain is 40% Female, 60% Male You have a total boy brain Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts And while your emotions do sway you sometimes... You never like to get feelings too involved What Gender Is Your Brain? post comment

[10 Feb 2007|09:19pm] [ mood | lonely ] so my parents and i got into an argument last night... i tried to make up with my mom but she was just not going to give in... me and dad are great.... today i got home from julies and she was cleaning like crazy.. (mom cleans when shes upset) there was a note on my computer about meghan calling.. no big deal....... later on i get my journal to write in it and pages are all muffed up and theres a birthday card i had kept inside the book out on the desk..... i start to think she read it. shes been avoiding me all day, totally akward and the tension is just retarded. i finally confront her and ask her why shes been avoiding me.. she denies that and said she hasnt.. finally it comes out that she dosnt know what to say to me... that she sees me as a differnt person now. that argument last night was not at that magnatude to have her think of me diffeently.... to not even talk to me.. but the garbage in my journal is. so i have thoughts, i have stories, i have secrets i dont tell them.. but if she read that book.. or went through it. id obvisouly look like a different person. that book is my fucking deepest feelings and thoughts at the moment. my mom cant even look at me anymore. its the shittiest feeling ever. i want to crawl into a hole and die. fuck i miss eric post comment

6 years ago [06 Feb 2007|01:51pm] okay, so 6 years ago today i lost my gramma.. the cooolest woman in the world. i wish everyone could have known her because she really was the greatest woman alive. id give anything to have a day with her..... miss you, loveyou gramma post comment

[27 Jan 2007|03:06am] dont you just love it when your expecting aphone call from somone, and it never haooens... so you try to call them and its like they disapppeared off the face of the earth.... im so glad im getting up early to go see the boyfriend who dosnt call me like he said he would........ i quite bitter. quite... really.. im really upset... i wanted to talk to him before i went to bed, and everyone i knoe he could be with says they're not with him....... so where the fuc are ya eric?? im not impresed.. not at all...... im gonna show up so fucking early, be so annoying, and piss the fuck out of yuo before you go to work.... becaseu you dont even let me know what your doing.. say " hey baby im out with this person... at this place" i dont care if its a message, ITS CALLED COMMUNICATION and i think eric lamy needs some sort of lesson on it, cause i NEVER knoow where he is... it makes me mentle.. im not supposed to to hunting him dowm... i should know at least who hes with.. " i'll call you later" that means later tonight...... fucker fucking fuck. im pretty pissed... -=jen=- post comment

pff [25 Jan 2007|06:07pm] [ mood | horny ] people in southern ontario are so stupid... a -30 temperature outside and the news broadcasters are telling you how to dress outside... fuck, if its cold, cover up a little bit of snow and no one knows how to drive...... eric if you read this, dont make fun of me, im not that bad- i just cant believe how funny it was.. telling you how to dress to go outside... last winter it was at least -30 from dec to feb...... as much as i wanted to come home, i now miss the big nickel....... maybe i just miss eric and hes there, so i miss it there... IMMM SOOOOOOO BBBOOOOORRREEEDDDDD its just me, my bro and zoey now, i took my parents to the airport today. their flight was at 4:05, and 4 hours to the dominican... i hoppe they have a nice flight. im out of here now -=jen=- ps, dont forget to dress for that -30 weather!! post comment

[22 Jan 2007|10:57pm] im craving chips so bad im actually eating some bbq pringels i found....... thats bad.... i never eat pringels, ever post comment

i think [22 Jan 2007|05:33pm] [ mood | lethargic ] im beginning to think me moving back to sauga is just me trying to run away from this feeling i have of uncertianty.... are things really going to be any better? only no wi have my mom on my case. i miss eric like i never thought possible. maybe this was a mistake? maybe it wasnt. i dont know. im so not setteled here, perhaps thats why i feel that. im going to pilates with my mom tonight. im totallyu not feeling it. i had a shitty sleep last night, slept till 11, coulnt get out of bed.. it was like i had taken gravol and i was trying to get up. i made this fabulous soup today. its all gone. i had 2 bowls and im quite full. i sure hope i get unfull by 630 i miss eric i miss eric i miss eric. i hate it when he snors but i'll take that over not having him. and the sucky part is that i made this happen.. i gave up and came home, and left him, and now im paying for it. maybe i should have stayed and tried to get that job at cambrian.maybe i should have gone back to school abnd finished some classes. perhaps i'll clear my head while my parents are gone. or maybe i'll fogg it up some more. who the hell knows -=jen=- post comment

miserable [21 Jan 2007|10:28pm] [ mood | sad ] i came to sauga with eric on friday. he went back to sudz today with his dad. eric's sister is still pregnant.... shes ready to bust im home, he's there, im miserable. i miss him i have no idea where in the world im suppose to be. i dont know what to do with myself. i have no direction in life. im lost. i dont know where i belong. i have no idea who i am anymore. i miss eric post comment

pff [07 Jan 2007|12:13pm] its safe to say, i have never been as confused about life as i am these days. not being in school-again, with no idea of what to do.. no job, living somewhere 4 hours away from family. im in the biggest funk of my life. i think i cry once a day about it. am i bound to wonder the world lost like this forever? im beginning to thing so. -=jen=- 1 comment|post comment

err, since my last entry, things are better [15 Dec 2006|04:04pm] my timeline: date night with the boyfriend tonight. tomorrow.. study in the day (i'll try) then off to espanola for the night where i'll tear it up with some ladie friends of mine.. (quite excited about that) then sunday.. pj study party with amanda.. monday.. my very last final.. patient care.. a 2.5 hour test... lots of reading/senarios im sure... :S then beers with the class, then party at night with the class... then catch a bus some time on tuesday home. ahhhhhhhhh!!!! i did my lift by the way.. i got 78% i was so sick yesterday morning.. felt so shitty... i had so much green shit commin outta my nost and mouth it was nasty.. post comment

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